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• I am currently in my fourth year of Medical School and have been preparing for my residency applications. I have a strong interest in a certain specialty and struggled very hard to get connections, do my electives and research, and by investing a great deal into the process. It was a very difficult and dark time because I felt very alone, stressed, and afraid. I did it all with hope and love because I push myself to do my part and believed the end will justify the means and God will do the rest. I have applied to these residencies, but I have gone unmatched. I decided to apply in the 2nd iteration into many diverse specialties. I am feeling quite sad, disappointed, and angry. Everyone tells me it was an extremely competitive year and that God has another plan for me, but I am struggling with it. I feel He has forgotten me and the world is against me. I feel God does not love me even though in my head I know it is not true. I feel like all the time, energy, and money I poured into my career is wasted and lost and that hurt. In addition, I am not in a relationship and have gone through a difficult rejection in pursuit of one.